This week I begun my placement at Christopher Farr cloth and was at Orto .I wanted to do a placement at C Farr to gain an insight into the interior textiles industry.
The team at C Farr have been very welcoming and I am enjoying working in an office with other employees which is a contrast to my other placements where I’ve been working for one person.
I am still feeling a bit lost and uncertain about my direction on the DPS year. After starting at Christopher Farr and spending time in the print studio. I had a tutorial with Lisa that left me questioning what I’m really getting out of my placements and what I want to gain from them. Although I know I’m learning and developing skills, I haven’t always felt excited or fulfilled by some of the work I’ve been doing, which has made me feel slightly aimless. I realised that when I’m interested in something, I give it my full attention and feel confident, but when that connection isn’t there, I start to doubt myself and my abilities. This has led to a mix of self-confidence and self-doubt, and a feeling that it’s been harder than expected to find placements that feel like the right fit.
Reflecting on this, I think part of the issue is that my expectations may not always align with reality, and I can be quite self-critical when things don’t immediately feel right. I also need to appreciate that internships aren’t about knowing everything straight away, and feeling unsure doesn’t mean I’m not capable or qualified.
Despite these doubts, I am actively learning processes and gaining valuable skills, and it’s important to acknowledge that. Moving forward, I want to challenge myself more by reaching out to larger teams and creative agencies, while also appreciating where I am now. By staying organised, being proactive with emails, and allowing myself time to figure out what truly fulfils me, I hope that by the end of the year I’ll have a clearer sense of direction and confidence in the path I want to take.
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